Reborn in the depths of dispare

Thank you to the strangers on here that like and support what I try to do, I can’t ever explain how personal this all is but I feel this is my voice this is my time and if I do not speak a life might be lost and I am a greedy soul I want to help as many as I can. The internet has been like an echo chamber for me where I can scream and shout to people and for my thoughts and views to light up like a righteous fire that burns like a brightness that this world has not seen for many a year. I feel like I’m burning with ideas and visions and desperately trying to get them off my chest at this difficult time for all.

I am so angry but happy at the same time that I have been given this choice in time to say my truths. I’m so angry that someone has not said what I am saying before I was born on this planet that makes me fume so much. But happy in that I am here to help consider me a second class option to the one you really wanted.

Right now I get a lot of solace comfort from the friends that I live, work rest and play with back up in the real world which I am presently along with about 75% of the population in lock down from. As well as the love from of my family. Most other people just don’t really know me and think me mad, stupid or close to death.

I really do think this planet is a slave to itself and a little light of positive awakening through my psychosis at a time of strife and destiny for the planet can only be a good thing. A beacon is now lit and some want to stand in the flames and feel the burn, other are afraid to look or pretend it is not there or just stick their head up their own arse instead of looking themselves in the mirror and standing by their own truths and others are afraid that I am a psycho monster.

I know instead of the hard-work that it is going to take to shape a world worth living for we could ask your God to get a magic wand out and start firing fire-bolt’s from his arse because that seems like the right-thing to do now.

My brother Andrew

Fallen Angel

Today as I held my phone in my hand I wanted to phone my brother and tell him what I was up to and that I wanted him to tell him to take care and that I loved him. I could also tell him what little battles I had won and what ones I hoped to take on tomorrow, my brother was much more selfless than me and for that I am in awe of still to this day. He would be so proud of me and loving too. If he could see how I was doing today with holding a job down, keeping a roof over my head, having good friends and having a future to look forward to. He has seen me stair into the abyss many a time when we grew up together and the more angry and expressive I became the funnier he would find me because he knew he had my back.

He got married to a women and they through the good grace of God have a child, that child was the most important being in this world to my brother and I hope he knows that one day. Sadly it did not work out between my brother and his wife and so they divorced resulting in one of the most painful experiences in my brothers short life.

My brother had a hotline to God, I shit you not. He could see spirits walking around in the material realm those that had died who possibly were unaware they were dead or liked to stay down here and play with us humies. My brother also told me of a time when he astroprojected his being to check up on someone he cared about wanted to see what they were up to, that scarred the crap out of me and although its not something I can do myself I knew that all these things he experienced were completely true for my brother was my brother and never lied to me.

In that token I fear I have most humies at a disadvantage because even though I cannot and hope never to be able to do these magic tricks that my brother did I know that the fact that he could do them meant they were real and therefore I know there is a supernatural force out there I do not require, proof, faith or even dare I say hope.

Much hotter and more loyal catch than me

I hope my brother is now in heaven for he lived his life as a good man and always nurtured my soul, had my back and would do anything asked for by me. Alas due to his violent suicide I do not know if God will allow him into heaven. Although thanks to one of my Catholic uncles he had a mass held for my brother or had the Priest pray for my brother once he was dead I forget which now it was a few years ago and my memory is not good at the best of times.

I just tried to look up a Catholic prayer for the dead online for my brother and have read and found the one below.

 Prayer for the Dead

  1. Catholic Online

God our Father,
Your power brings us to birth,
Your providence guides our lives,
and by Your command we return to dust.

Lord, those who die still live in Your presence,
their lives change but do not end.
I pray in hope for my family,
relatives and friends,
and for all the dead known to You alone.

In company with Christ,
Who died and now lives,
may they rejoice in Your kingdom,
where all our tears are wiped away.
Unite us together again in one family,
to sing Your praise forever and ever.


Due to the nature and circumstances of his death the prayer does not give peace or comfort to me for I believe in my heart of hearts he should, could and would have still been here today should he have made a better choice and as I am such a persuasive person myself I believe I could have had a chance of saving his life. The people with him that night fought and battled and were bruised in there efforts to fight for his life. My weapons would have been words and tears to stop him in his moment of madness and there is a chance that I could have stopped his death.

So the conundrum is as they say in the Schrödinger’s cat hypothosis which is a thought experiment, sometimes described as a paradox, devised by Austrian physicist Erwin Schrödinger in 1935, though the idea originated from Albert Einstein. It illustrates what he saw as the problem of the Copenhagen interpretation of quantum mechanics applied to everyday objects. The determination of fate, predictability and predetermination.

Was he meant to die that night, could I have stopped him and is he now in heaven or hell?

He is still my inspiration to this day and I fear or look forward to how deep down the rabbit whole of life I can go as I honor his unfortunate departure to death until we meet again my only brother.

Work Team meeting

Just joined my first team meeting for Devon Communities Together we were all talking from work and went really well. I joined them by landline phone while they all plugged into zoom. A friend of mine has advised me not to use Zoom due to it’s hackabilty so I am just buzzing in from my landline phone to the meeting.

So good to talk to colleagues that know me as just a regular normal Joe to be ignored and sometimes listened to as they see fit. I have a meeting with our chief exec this afternoon about our communications network that we have built up to defend people from Corona19 and also from Corona19 disinformation the knowledge force-field we have implemented seems to be currently holding its own under the relentless attach of waives of negativity.

Have a tune to play for someone that I like that does not even know I exist. Ho hum, shit happens.

It’s all in the bloody eyes

Unrequited love and liking a wanna be celebrity is so funny in a really horrible dark and mysterious way!!

CND – Rain helps to extinguish fire from Irish Independent

Rain helps extinguish Chernobyl forest fire

Burned trees are seen after a forest fire outside the settlement of Poliske located in the 30 km (19 miles) exclusion zone around the Chernobyl nuclear power plant. Photo: Reuters

Burned trees are seen after a forest fire outside the settlement of Poliske located in the 30 km (19 miles) exclusion zone around the Chernobyl nuclear power plant. Photo: Reuters

Pavel Polityuk

April 15 2020 01:30 AM

A huge fire that tore through forests around the defunct Chernobyl nuclear plant has been put out after hundreds of emergency workers used planes and helicopters to douse the flames.

Environmental activists had said the fire, near the site of the world’s worst nuclear disaster in 1986 and believed to have been started deliberately, posed a radiation risk.

Officials said they registered short-term rises in Caesium-137 particles in the Kiev area to the south of the plant, but radiation levels were within normal limits overall and did not require additional protection measures.

Helped by rain, emergency services prevented the fire from spreading to either the plant or military facilities in the area.

They will however need a few more days to fully extinguish it, President Volodymyr Zelensky’s office stated.

Police have accused a 27-year-old local of deliberately starting the blaze, and Mr Zelensky’s office said officers had also arrested suspected arsonists near two points where the fire broke out.

Irish Independent

Recycling what we already have

European lawmakers propose a ‘right to repair’ for mobiles and laptops

Natasha Lomas@riptari / 3:40 pm GMT • March 11, 2020 CommentRecycling mobile and smart phones

Image Credits: Peter Dazeley / Getty Images

The European Commission has set out a plan to move towards a ‘right to repair’ for electronics devices, such as mobile phones, tablets and laptops.

More generally it wants to restrict single-use products, tackle “premature obsolescence” and ban the destruction of unsold durable goods — in order to make sustainable products the norm.

The proposals are part of a circular economy action plan that’s intended to deliver on a Commission pledge to transition the bloc to carbon neutrality by 2050.

By extending the lifespan of products, via measures which target design and production to encourage repair, reuse and recycling, the policy push aims to reduce resource use and shrink the environmental impact of buying and selling stuff.

The Commission also wants to arm EU consumers with reliable information about reparability and durability — to empower them to make greener product choices.

“Today, our economy is still mostly linear, with only 12% of secondary materials and resources being brought back into the economy,” said EVP Frans Timmermans in a statement. “Many products break down too easily, cannot be reused, repaired or recycled, or are made for single use only. There is a huge potential to be exploited both for businesses and consumers. With today’s plan we launch action to transform the way products are made and empower consumers to make sustainable choices for their own benefit and that of the environment.”

The Commission said electronics and ICT will be a priority area for implementing a right to repair, via planned expansion of the Ecodesign Directive — which currently sets energy efficiency standards for devices such as washing machines.

Its action plan proposes setting up a ‘Circular Electronics Initiative’ to promote longer product lifetimes through reusability and reparability as well as “upgradeability” of components and software to avoid premature obsolescence.

The Commission is also planning new regulatory measures on chargers for mobile phones and similar devices. While an EU-wide take back scheme to return or sell back old mobile phones, tablets and chargers is being considered.

Back in January the EU Parliament voted overwhelmingly for tougher action to reduce e-waste, calling for the Commission to come up with beefed up rules by this summer.

In recent years MEPs have also pushed for the Ecodesign Direction to be expanded to include repairability.

The Commission proposals also include a new regulatory framework for batteries and vehicles — including measures to improve the collection and recycling rates of batteries and ensure the recovery of valuable materials. Plus there’s a proposal to revise the rules on end-of-life vehicles to improve recycling efficiency and waste oil treatment. 

It’s also planning measures to set targets to shrink the amount of packaging being produced, with the aim of making all packaging reusable or recyclable in an economically viable way by 2030.

Mandatory requirements on recycled content for plastics used in areas such as packaging, construction materials and vehicles is another proposal.

Other priority areas for promoting circularity and reducing high consumption rates include construction, textiles and food.

The Commission expects the circular economy to have net positive benefits in terms of GDP growth and jobs’ creation across the bloc — suggesting measures to boost sustainability will increase the EU’s GDP by an additional 0.5% by 2030 and create around 700,000 new jobs.

The backing of MEPs in the European Parliament and EU Member States will be necessary if the Commission proposals are to make it into pan-EU law.

Should they do so, Dutch social enterprise Fairphone shows a glimpse of what’s coming down the repairable pipe in future…

My newly designed logo it cost a prity penny too!!

I am really surprised by how expensive the digital economy is to cyber surf within, to say that you can sometimes earn money and see it disappear into thin air!!