On Saturday 19th September me and mum bought some flowers and set off to drive to the woodland/moorland burial site in which we lay my Dad to rest in last year.
Mum had not been to the site before and the only time I had been there was on the day of his funeral. I was struggling to remember where he was! It’s a relatively small beautiful site and we needed the help of Dad’s partner, Shamen who was able to send a photo of where the plot was in relation to some trees and hedges. I had a good feeling and was grateful that we visited Dad’s site. The weather was a little misty and grey which kind of added to the mysticality of the site. I know dad would have found it amusing with me stumbling around the site trying to work out where he was.
When we laid him to rest we organised a pipe tobacco and matches with him in his coffin. (These were items that he had carried around with him for most of his adult life and it only seemed fitting to let him have them on the other side of life too.
We have also designed a slate to go on his grave which will be ready in a few weeks which I think is very fitting for him (having a pipe on the image too).
As much as I think about him and my brother almost every other day I feel Dad would have appreciated the visit to where he now rests that we did today and I am pleased he has a sight for us to visit. My brother Andy’s ashes were scattered to sea from one of his favourite beaches in Cornwall which now seems quite far away to me so please Dad is nearer by still.
The narrative around elections used to be its the economy stupid though now the right seem to be desperately playing it as its the dangerous economic migrant and people are voting for this narrative across the western democratic globe in large numbers and the causes and affects of such voting patterns though playing out in the USA we have not fully seen the consequence yet of the immigrants out focus in society yet. Most people claim to be good honest Christian folk in western nations but our voting patterns seem to show an opposite to love and empathy in a divide conquer and rule pattern of political play instead.
Public concern over immigration is highly complex and driven by a mix of self-interest, economic anxieties, and cultural values, rather than simple selfishness. Political scientists and polling data show that while far-right parties successfully capitalise on these concerns to win votes, the motivations of voters span a broad spectrum of legitimate public policy anxieties.
Why Voters Support Far-Right Immigration Platforms
Political scientists categorise the motivations behind anti-immigration sentiment into three distinct pillars:
Motivation Category
Core Driver
Common Voter Concerns
Economic Self-Interest
Protection of personal livelihood and resources.
* Fear of wage suppression in lower-skilled sectors. * Increased competition for affordable housing and public services.
“Compositional Amenities”
Preservation of familiar social environments.
* Rapid changes to local neighbourhoods, schools, and workplaces. * Concerns over social cohesion and cultural integration.
Political Protest
Frustration with mainstream governance.
* Perception that centrist parties have failed to control borders or manage public infrastructure.
It does also beg the question if it’s such a contentious and yet majority motivating issue for the public, heaven forbid but why don’t more parties take a harder line on immigration – just for the votes.
The Political Strategy of the Far Right
Far-right and populist parties across the West—such as Reform UK in Britain or the Alternative for Germany AfD – have experienced a surge in support by directly linking immigration to everyday domestic struggles.
By framing immigration as an immediate threat to the economic well-being and security of the “in-group,” these parties transform a macro-level policy issue into a deeply personal, pocketbook issue for the individual voter. Sociological studies indicate that when public infrastructure feels strained, voting to limit immigration is often viewed by individuals not as malice, but as a rational act of self-preservation.
President Donald Trump can be seen as an example of the damage done by the far right today when elected with deliberate lies and misrepresentation to the voting public, wilful ignorance and breaking of political laws and unlawfully operating political institutions also causing irreparable damage with with ice on immigration, unlawful tariffs on trade and illegal wars in middle east.
The Critical Perspective: Institutional Damage and Policy Overreach
Critics align closely with the view that his tenure significantly strained democratic norms and international law:
Immigration & ICE: Critics point to policies like the family separation mandate at the US-Mexico border and expanded Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) detentions as humanitarian crises that damaged the moral standing of the United States.
Trade Tariffs: Many economists argue that his administration’s unilateral tariffs—particularly on allies and China—disrupted global supply chains, violated World Trade Organisation principles, and acted as a consumption tax on domestic consumers.
Foreign Policy & Military Action: Critics highlight actions like the 2020 assassination of Iranian General Qasem Soleimani as provocative escalations that bypassed traditional congressional approval and risked wider, unlawful conflict.
Democratic Institutions: His rhetoric surrounding election integrity, ongoing legal challenges regarding his handling of classified documents, and actions related to the events of January 6, 2021, are frequently cited as deliberate attempts to undermine institutional trust.
With a straight face and without irony his supports argue that the actions Trump takes are in defence of the working man (or his wealthy benefactors and himself) as a necessary disruption of a failed political establishment. Even though it is his actions and policies that are intent on causing the state and even international institutions to fail.
International aid is currently in a state of unprecedented, generational collapse following the second Trump administration’s sweeping financial cuts and structural dismantlement.
As the world’s largest single aid donor, the absolute withdrawal of U.S. financial backing has created a massive funding vacuum that other wealthy nations have been unable or unwilling to fill.
The Scale of the Funding Collapse
Dismantling of USAID: Following a total freeze initiated in January 2025, the Trump administration systematically dismantled the United States Agency for International Development (USAID), transferring nominal duties to the State Department. The agency’s final operations permanently closed in September 2026.
80%+ Program Cancellations: Driven by spending-reduction initiatives like the “Doge” project managed by Elon Musk, the U.S. cancelled between 80% and 83% of its global foreign aid projects, leaving a funding gap exceeding $35 billion across 120 countries.
Plummeting Global Humanitarian Funds: According to data from the Financial Tracking Service, total global humanitarian funding imploded from roughly €23.97 billion down to €7.34 billion between 2025 and 2026. Direct U.S. humanitarian support alone plummeted from approximately $14 billion to $3.7 billion.
Multilateral Withdrawals: In January 2026, President Trump signed a memorandum withdrawing the U.S. from 66 international organizations, including 31 United Nations entities. UN anchor funding for humanitarian crises was slashed to just $2 billion (down from historic averages of $8 billion to $10 billion), strictly barring any projects related to climate change.
Global Consequences and “The Domino Effect”
The shockwaves of the U.S. withdrawal have crippled non-governmental organizations (NGOs) and severely altered the geopolitical aid landscape:
Sector / Region Affected
Core Impact
The “Domino Effect” on Donors
Following the U.S. retreat, other wealthy donor nations (such as Canada and various European countries) scaled back their own anti-poverty funds or shifted focuses toward trade and economic development.
Healthcare in Africa
The loss of USAID funding has destabilized critical local frameworks fighting HIV, malaria, and tuberculosis. Nations heavily reliant on aid—such as Mozambique, which suffered a 50% cut in U.S. health assistance—face immediate coverage gaps, medicine stockouts, and understaffed facilities.
Central & Northern America
In regions previously reliant on the U.S. for two-thirds of their humanitarian budgets, programs managing families displaced by gang violence and extreme weather have ceased. Funding in Honduras dropped to just 10% of what was needed, while initiatives in El Salvador and Guatemala were entirely discontinued.
NGO Disruption
Major international non-profits were hit by immediate “stop-work” orders. For example, BRAC (the world’s largest non-profit) was forced to suspend programs affecting 3.5 million people overnight.
While the European Union and its member states have stepped up to cover over 40% of remaining global development aid, a substantial portion of Europe’s aid remains heavily directed toward Ukraine. Experts from organizations like Refugees International and Oxfam warn that the current outlook remains extraordinarily bleak, leaving millions of the world’s most vulnerable populations entirely without a safety net.
To ethically minded Christian folk these should be matters that matter but more often than not they are ignored at best and blatantly cast aside as ‘we can’t take refugees and immigrants there is no room and we hate them as there not our type of people they are criminals. Such views and stereo types are then promoted and fuelled further by political activists and politicians.
Trumps economic incompetence has also resulted in his two terms in office leading to the US national debt having increased by approximately $11.6 trillion. The total national debt crossed a historic milestone of $40 trillion so Trumps incompetence on the economy is also not an issue that concerns immigrant haters but fear of foreigners is still an international fear voting issue and thus we go full circle – there and back again a racists tail.
On February 2020 I started my huwspace.com blog and have had a great deal of enjoyment expressing myself on this site. With music, thoughts and films that are close to my heart that express who I am and write about my perspective on what is going on in my life and in the world. 2020 onwards has been a crazy time really and the 2020’s decade has been one in which so much has happened it’s like the world is going too fast and there is no chance of jumping off at all as we are here for the ride or until our song stops being written or sung.
My mental health has been at times a challenge to during this time. It’s sometimes difficult to know who I am where I fit in and where I belong. This year I am 50 in July a milestone if ever there was one. I have lived in my home now since 2012 in Exeter and it really is a home and base for me which I important to me. I was born in Wales in 1976 and first moved to Devon in 1982 to the village of Spreyton a place which has been a home from home. Though I know I am Welsh and love watching Wales play rugby I also feel strongly a part of Devon due to the roots I have put down here and friends made too.
Being the youngest Edwards in Devon now at what feels like a ripe old age of 49 is a strange experience to have my mum and me enjoy our life here but it feels sad that we are the last parts of the family that moved to Devon left here. It is a wonderful place which I feel very grateful to be living and would not want to live anywhere else for sure.
Challenging start to the New Year with the experience of loss of loved ones gone but never forgotten.
Sadly on the 6th January we lost my mother’s brother or my uncle Paul Hughes a lovely man with a big heart. He had battled dementia in the last year of his life which is a cruel occupier of the mind and body. Uncle Paul reminded me very much of my Grandpa Hughes his father Bill Hughes they both had the same look and sound to their voice and as I spent many a found Christmas with my Grandpa Bill Hughes seeing and hearing Paul Hughes would often remind me of those more innocent and happier times.
Grandpa Bill Hughes with me, my bro and Mum
Uncle Paul Hughes
Then sadly we learned that on the 17 January a very lovely soul Jacqui Leigh lost her battle with cancer she was a loving and kind soul that it was also felt hard to hear of her passing. She has four children and her husband that will now very much be missing her considerably as will we.
I spent some time at mums this weekend where we have been getting out some Christmas decorations and putting up Christmas trees. Dad will not be around this year and with us losing him at the beginning of this year and him becoming unwell last Christmas with his last pint being on Christmas eve in a pub out with me and his last full meal being on Chirstmas day it will be da different sort of feel to Christmas.
Mum’s tree in officeMums main tree in homeTwo little fellas fresh out of their box
When I got home this afternoon I decorated my first tree in my own home. I wanted to do it this year as with things being different so I fancied a change myself and getting a tree putting it up and decorated it will bring a little Christmas cheer into my home though it won make up for the storm clouds we faced last year.
My brother would have been 53 this year on Saturday November 29th
Andy with his dog Sam and Andy’s son Ben with his dog Defor
Had by brother survived his moment of madness, when he took his own life I know there would have been so much more joy to have come through and for him in his life path no matter which road it could have led him down. I was doing a Google search about him tonight as I know there was information on him on the internet about being a paranormal investigator and wondered what I migth still find.
I found the video below which I just find too spooky to watch myself of my brother from beyond the grave talking to ghosts. Its just a bit too spooky and close to comfort for me to listen and watch. I know he is still around and sends me and mum signs of his presence, for me it might be buggering around with the electrics on my nights out singing karaoke, as if he is having his moment up on the stage up there with me too, when I get up and sing. I can often get electric lights flickering next to me for no apparent reason too and it often makes me think it’s simply him saying hello bro.
I know there are lots of people that don’t believe in the supernatural and they believe it to be either fraud or coincidence. But for me though not religious I am very much a spiritual person and believe and hope that right and light will triumph over wrong and darkness wherever and whenever it must or can.
Ghost box In Poldark Mine Cornwall UK with GHOST- Andy “Ed” Edwards, Soph Beharrell & Nettie Tasker.
Furthe rinformation on this page on youtube says the following – This was filmed in 2010 at Poldark Mine Cornwall UK. with GHOST UK. A team of Paranormal Investigators – Andy “Ed” Edwards, Sophi Beharrell, Jeanette “Nettie” Tasker & Simon Colgan. (Simon was unavailable for this investigation) This was the first time we had used the Ghost box aka Spirit box in the mine with amazing results. We have investigated many places, but found the mine to be a perfect place to use the Ghost box. We have experienced the draining of the batteries from our equipment many times, but you can see from this investigation this also happens with Soph’s Video Camera. Thanks for watching.
The “skill psychologically of lighting up the dark” can be described as resilience and learned optimism, which involves acknowledging difficult emotions (the “darkness”) while actively cultivating hope and developing practical skills to navigate challenges and promote well-being. This concept draws on various psychological principles, including Jungian psychology and positive psychology.
Key Psychological Concepts
Balance of Opposites (Jungian Psychology): Psychologist Carl Jung noted that light and darkness coexist; one cannot exist without the other. The “skill” involves achieving a healthy balance rather than trying to eliminate darkness entirely. It suggests that there is value (or “gold”) to be found in understanding and integrating one’s “shadow” side (repressed or unacknowledged parts of the personality).
Resilience: This is the mental and emotional ability to adapt to adversity, trauma, tragedy, threats, or stress. It is a key skill for navigating the “dark times” in life, enabling individuals to bounce back from challenges and learn from them.
Learned Optimism: A concept developed by Martin Seligman, this skill involves intentionally changing one’s perspective and challenging automatic negative thoughts. It is about how we interpret events, not changing reality itself.
Hope as an Active Mindset: Hope is not a passive emotion but an active mindset that involves setting goals, identifying pathways to achieve them, and maintaining a positive outlook even amidst obstacles.
Emotional Regulation and Processing: The ability to sit with pain and uncertainty, process difficult emotions, and avoid “toxic positivity” (dismissing genuine suffering) is crucial for healing and growth.
Skills and Strategies
Cultivating the skill of “lighting up the dark” involves several practical strategies:
Awareness and Acceptance: Acknowledging and accepting the reality of one’s inner and outer “dark spaces” (sadness, fear, uncertainty) is the first step toward finding a path forward.
Practicing Gratitude: Actively looking for things to be grateful for, even in difficult times, can build a more positive outlook.
Seeking Support: Reaching out to others and leveraging empathy from friends, family, or professionals can provide the “candle” needed to find one’s way through challenging times.
Self-Care and Self-Compassion: Prioritizing physical and mental well-being (sleep, nutrition, exercise) and treating oneself with kindness helps build the necessary energy and resilience to cope with challenges.
Mindfulness and Reflection: Engaging in self-reflection through methods like journaling helps identify negative patterns and work through emotions.
Purpose and Action: Focusing on solutions, contributing to the well-being of others (kindness), and engaging in goal-oriented behavior can provide meaning and purpose during difficult periods.
Ultimately, this skill is about acknowledging the dualism of light and dark within human experience and developing the psychological tools to navigate this balance effectively for overall well-being.
The phrase, “The poor will always have you,” is an inversion of a well-known quote from the New Testament of the Bible, which in modern translations generally reads, “The poor you will always have with you“.
This statement is recorded in the Gospels of Matthew (26:11), Mark (14:7), and John (12:8), and is part of Jesus’ response to his disciples when they object to a woman anointing him with expensive perfume that could have been sold to help the poor.
Origin and Context
Jesus’ statement is a direct allusion to Deuteronomy 15:11 in the Old Testament, which states, “For there will never cease to be poor in the land; that is why I am commanding you to open wide your hand to your brother and to the poor and needy in your land”.
Meaning and Interpretation
When Jesus said this, he was not dismissing the plight of the poor or suggesting that poverty is an unchangeable fate to be ignored. Instead, the original context highlights several points:
A Call to Action: By referencing Deuteronomy, Jesus was reminding his followers of their ongoing, God-given responsibility to be open-handed and generous toward the poor.
Prioritizing Worship: The statement served as a defense of the woman’s act of worship. Jesus emphasized that while the disciples would always have opportunities to help the poor, the unique, physical opportunity to honor him before his imminent death and burial was fleeting.
Critique of Motives: In John’s Gospel, the objection came from Judas Iscariot, who was a thief and did not genuinely care for the poor, adding a layer of rebuke to those who use concern for the needy as a mask for their own self-righteousness or misplaced priorities.
In summary, the phrase is a reminder of the perpetual existence of poverty in a fallen world and a constant call for believers to show ongoing compassion and generosity, but it also establishes the importance of wholehearted devotion and worship of Christ.
I am not normally one for looking to biblical texts for inspiration but this just struck a cord with me this morning. Although I am employed (happyish in my work) receive enough pay to keep a roof over my head and to try to save money for rainy days and buy goods and services that I think I need in my life, there is very little leftover to do anything else with after that.
Not that I need more money for myself but there is also a complete lack of employment opportunities to move up any form of career ladder nowadays across Britain, even if I made the time and effort to apply for other jobs. Unlike in my youth, administration manager roles or project support staff roles roles just no longer exist in a way like they used to. I know people with a desire to work that are finding it extremely difficult to step into employment now and have never witnessed an employment market as difficult and competitive as the one that exists today.
There are ways and means of getting into work and you must go the extra mile if unemployed every time to prove your worth to potential employers. I have always looked to work in a place of my choice doing something that interests me as a volunteer when out of work and that has always proved so far to be an excellent stepping stone to employed work and also a huge motivator to get out of bed and rewarding me with enjoyment and self respect.
I had up until recently been contributing small amounts or money each month to the Green Party and also a charity called International Rescue. I stopped those payments recently and it has to some extent been playing on my mind. How can someone like me help people those with less than what I have.
I would like to think there are many ways I can continue to help others. Such as how I vote, what I advocate for in the political system. What I say on my blog, what I believe in and live by. Helping a friend with less cash than me with a drink on a night out or making sure they have enough money to safely get a taxi home or other little things like that are small wins that help the people that I respect and want to support.
Poverty has felt like a real life possibility for me at times one which could if I am unlucky enough or we are all propelled into some cataclysm come back top haunt me. I was homeless (for a very short time myself once, which lead to me having the home that I have now lived in for over 15 years provided by a housing association which I now also work voluntarily for on a scrutiny panel to help improve the housing association for others, they have helped me so I am helping them now. I have always found in life that when I can not afford to give to a charity or good cause financially I can always make up for by giving my time and effort instead.
I have also been on benefits in the past when out of work or unwell with which without which I could have had nothing although saying that I have always had the love and support of my parents. They will not always be around to help me though which does make me focus my mind on ensuring I am there to stand on my own two feet on my own. To think of safety nets is not just theoretical for me but absolutely vital in order to have gone from where I was to where I am today.
To pay my way in life and hold my own not relying on anyone now financially but myself is a huge achievement to me. Though some might see holding your own and paying your way as perhaps a form of failure to me it is a genuine success. Well it must be some kind of religious quotes day for me so I will bail out with another interesting quote from the bible. “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven”.
JAMES – Sit Down (Original Rough Trade Version Music Video)
Clocks went back by an hour over the weekend so its now gone 10pm instead off 11pm on Monday night. It feels more like a Sunday night as I had the day off today. I went out to a city called Plymouth to a bar called Walkabout to sing Karaoke with some friends on Sunday. I hope we all had a good night and got up and sang our little hearts out.
Some of my favourite songs that I sing relate to a connection between my head and heart in the songs concerning such unspoken matters such as unrequited love, past lovers no longer with us and love lost as well as other other things that are also important to me such as the loss of my father and brother or what will happen to us all on this planet in the future (all good deep and meaningful issues on my mind of coure).
I got to sing three songs last night – the first was ‘the Blowers Daughter’ by Damien Rice. The next song I sung I was ‘Fields of Gold’ by Sting and finally I sang a song by the killers called ‘All the things I have done’. I bit of drunken crowd participation took place too which was aq lot of fun and also late night out as the bar shut about 1:30am and I got home just after 2:30am so lucky to have the day off really as a means of recovering from such a late night.
It’s a big venue with a big stage but does not really get that full so feels quite intimate to sing there and there are lots of other really good singers that also get up and give it their best. Since lock down back at the beginning of the 2020’s I have met so many good and new friends due to singing at Karaoke bars and it really has brought so many great opportunities too and a new lease of life for me.
I really do enjoy meeting new people and getting to know who they are and what makes them tick. I don’t know if this is a natural curious state of mind or brought on even more due to having lost people through them passing away and so searching for ways to meet other new and lovely people as a means to try and compensate for those that have been lost. This will be my first Christmas without my Dad which is strange and even though it’s still nearly 2 months away it is nonetheless a though on my mind.
In memory of those gone but not forgotten, loved and not lost
Today is 2 months to the day since my lovely father passed away and though I think often of him miss him and feel and know that he is no longer here – I do so in what I feel to be a fond farewell light and positive imprint of him on my mind and soul.
Some people I know are horrified by the death of a love one or terrorised by no longer having a loved one in their life or fear when others lose people close to them too and keep their distance from people who have recently lost or are bereaving. Depending on the circumstances of a death, I know it can be brutal to lose someone that you deeply love.
But I don’t feel we should use our own self suffering as a barometer to how much we loved someone or even how much they are now missed. There are many joys to life and being alive and living in the moment are things which my father enjoyed to do in life himself and he would wish for me in some way I’m sure to appreciate the experience of being alive and not be tied up in knots due to his death or the death of other who were loved and lost.
Years ago in university during what was possibly a sociology class I remember a lecture announcing to us that when we cry we only cry for ourselves and for what those tears mean to us. We have no empthy and emotions for others whatsoever. I was instantly enraged and engaged in this opinion and perspective and that is exactly what the lecture wanted us to do to challenge him to engage with him and ultimately gain an emotional reaction on what his statement said. To this day I have often still wondered about the concept of crying for other s or simply crying for our selves and was the lecturer trying in some way to express a simple truth of his or get us to engage in emotive intellectual debate. Who knows? What I do know is that idea still remains with me some 30 years later.
I suppose the debate will always rage, do we cry for ourselves? or for others? What we have lost or for those whom were taken away or maybe from knowing that we will one day be in the same situation sitting in a coffin ourselves and before that day comes for us crying or morning that day getting closer and closer for us as with each day that passes as well as those others that we love and have in our lives that we will one day lose. Why do we hurt for what was taken away or for what we might yet lose?
Dad, my brother Andy and my Mum at Andy’s passing out parade at his official graduation ceremony following the completion of his course at Culdrose Cornwall.
I sat down to write this as a way of saying I’m ok and hello and its also ok to not be ok. But it appears to be more and deeper than that as the words flow out. What I’m trying to say is to me I want to love those that I have lost, appreciate them in this living alive world and show little signs of respect and love for those I care about where I can by how I live, whether that’s by being a little kinder at times, older and wiser at others but definitely not feeling sad for sadness sake or hurt for the sake of being heartbroken sake.
The people that I have and love in this life I have enjoyed their company at their highs and lows and mostly enjoyed being with them at their highs when they too enjoyed their life. I aspire to enjoy my life and honour theirs.
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