Sometimes I find myself and others in crisis, not one of there making but one that they or myself or others are very much being weathered by and emotionally unable to take shelter from what is raining down.
Although the instinct is sometimes to try and wipe them or yourself dry with reassuring words and all knowing answers, such words and answers can not always stop the emotional rain.
its upsetting and frustrating for both you and a person caught in an emotional storm, but sometimes its better to wait for a storm to pass before you look for a place to recharge from the storm. Sometimes you will only know a storm will have passed once the darn thing has finished and not knowing what it will do or when it will stop can be frustrating in its self.
On an economic front there is a storm coming in the UK. Lots of business some long established business have been being announced as going bust in the UK and it really does feel like we are on the cusp of an economic storm of a recession with concerns on job fronts, stock market highs leading to potential stock market lows and Trumps war in the middle east and threats of tariffs and tantrums to those that don’t support his brain rotten madness there really are potentially several economic storms on the horizon.
Though I have successfully managed to navigate many a storm in my employment history and keep my head above water maintaining a position in the job market for most of the last 30 years or so. Surviving the closure of companies, redundancies and also businesses no longer having enough money to hire me or restructuring me out of a roles on the odd occasion. I am more blessed with some of the areas that I have worked than cursed and have met some great people along the way and had a lot of fun at times spending some of the money that I have hard earned. I have at no time found getting a job or trying to get promoted or change jobs easy, in anyway shape or form and there are several patterns of behaviour by employers across the post industrial service sector that have developed across the service sector and government employers that are a concern for me and do not look to change in the medium to short term if any thing things are getting worse and accelerating into a darker place quicker now than ever before.
My present employer no longer employees any administration staff (by way of having admin in any job titles) to undertake work even though a considerable amount of what I would call administrative work still needs to take place in order for the organisation to function effectively and efficiently and get things done. You are either an apprentice an employment officer, employment support officer or manager, senior manager or director. More often than not you also need to have direct experience of doing a job already before they will hire you to do a job so internal recruitment opportunities are very few and far between unless, you have probably guessed it, you are already doing the job you are applying for.
I get this (I don’t like it though) and understand this how they operate and so to gain experience and improve my employability I go out of my comfort zone and so have expanded my employment experiences by in the last 10 months working part time on top of my full time job role for a housing association on a residents board that explores areas of change and improvement to be recommended to the housing association by residents and staff. I have enjoyed this role its been an unpaid post and has really helped me expand my knowledge base and experience whilst also helped me learn new skills and hopefully prove that I am employable to other potential employers in the long run.
So with my new found set of skills and employment experiences I started to try and look for other areas of work both with my own employer and also with other organisations that I would hope to work for and with. In a relatively short space of time I managed to get invited to two interviews out of three adverts that i had applied for, so not too bad success rate so far. One of the roles was an administration role which would have resulted in a pay cut and leaving the organisation I work for now and the other role was a potential promotion into an almost corporate executive role.
Well I had both interviews on the same day and the role that really stood out as a better opportunity was the one with my present employer, although in hindsight that interview went terribly right from the start and the project lead had no interest in hiring me and I think she did not even want to interview me either and I was possibly sifted out as a potentially suitable recruit by HR not her.
Just before I left the interview I spoke up saying thank you for this interview opportunity it really does feel like exciting times to work here, to which the HR person on the panel agreed and the project manager of the role quibbled in to say that the whole thing was a nightmare, leaving me with an impression that she was either overwhelmed and out of her depth or just disinterested in the whole concept of the project that she faced trying to hire a team of people to do her job for her with which was not me. Suffice to say I was told that I did not have the job and did not have the correct employment experience. So why they bothered to interview me in the first place god only knows. I also was not offered the other role due to a better candidate on the day too.
Not just viewing this from my personal experience of employment and employability over the last 30 years but the service sector or office and government based employment roles that have sustained an employment for the last 30 years no longer exist and are likely to not return under current trends and predictions.
My first job that I got that opened my world to being a productive employee in an organisation that I loved to work for and appreciated my working for them in my early 20’s I just cant see me being able to obtain the role again if I were trying to enter a role in the job market in todays environment compared with pack in the 1990’s.
My employment experience consisted of a failed degree which then led me to move in with parents and work at a local Castle on the edge of Dartmoor for a charity called the National Trust doing gardening for them, that opportunity led me to go and work for a local Estate Agents as an office junior, which then led to me then getting an awesome varied and rewarding job with the Devon Wildlife Trust as a low and behold Administrative Assistant, where I earned enough money to move out of my parents house and in with some friends, I though my career truly had begun and I felt I could work hard and be rewarded for my hard work at the same time.
The whole concept of no more admin anymore in a lot of employers across the developed world and the computerisation and automation of roles for efficiency purposes is both logical and a race to the jobless market. If we get rid of all employees or a large proportion of employees through ever innovative forms of computerisation and automation, just what are said employees or unemployees supposed to do with themselves and how will they afford to buy products and services within an economy and how will a developed economy sustain itself with an ever increasing populace that are either unable or due to the barriers they face unwilling to work and contribute income taxes into a system that has sustained people throughout my lifetime.
Better to have lived, worked and lost than to have never lived, worked and lost at all.
This is about not just living a rewarding life and navigating personal or global storms, but having enough money to live a rewarding life keeping your head above water and being done in a way that is sustainable for all not just a lucky few.
On February 2020 I started my huwspace.com blog and have had a great deal of enjoyment expressing myself on this site. With music, thoughts and films that are close to my heart that express who I am and write about my perspective on what is going on in my life and in the world. 2020 onwards has been a crazy time really and the 2020’s decade has been one in which so much has happened it’s like the world is going too fast and there is no chance of jumping off at all as we are here for the ride or until our song stops being written or sung.
My mental health has been at times a challenge to during this time. It’s sometimes difficult to know who I am where I fit in and where I belong. This year I am 50 in July a milestone if ever there was one. I have lived in my home now since 2012 in Exeter and it really is a home and base for me which I important to me. I was born in Wales in 1976 and first moved to Devon in 1982 to the village of Spreyton a place which has been a home from home. Though I know I am Welsh and love watching Wales play rugby I also feel strongly a part of Devon due to the roots I have put down here and friends made too.
Being the youngest Edwards in Devon now at what feels like a ripe old age of 49 is a strange experience to have my mum and me enjoy our life here but it feels sad that we are the last parts of the family that moved to Devon left here. It is a wonderful place which I feel very grateful to be living and would not want to live anywhere else for sure.
Challenging start to the New Year with the experience of loss of loved ones gone but never forgotten.
Sadly on the 6th January we lost my mother’s brother or my uncle Paul Hughes a lovely man with a big heart. He had battled dementia in the last year of his life which is a cruel occupier of the mind and body. Uncle Paul reminded me very much of my Grandpa Hughes his father Bill Hughes they both had the same look and sound to their voice and as I spent many a found Christmas with my Grandpa Bill Hughes seeing and hearing Paul Hughes would often remind me of those more innocent and happier times.
Grandpa Bill Hughes with me, my bro and Mum
Uncle Paul Hughes
Then sadly we learned that on the 17 January a very lovely soul Jacqui Leigh lost her battle with cancer she was a loving and kind soul that it was also felt hard to hear of her passing. She has four children and her husband that will now very much be missing her considerably as will we.
Being male, it could be manflu or a virus or something else not very nice. All I know is that I have had a varity of different symptoms since about Christmas Eve from a blocked nose to, sneezing and then flem on the chest. While also feeling hot and very tired and warn out and sleepy.
Its Chitstmas though and so i have spent much of the time at my mums house in bed not having to worry about work or what I need to do next and so this illness for want of a better description has not been to psycologically bad. I would be greatful if I do not pass it to my mum before i leave to head back to my own home and also it woudl be nice to shift it from me so that I have more energy.
I have nearly two weeks of work at present and although there were a few things I cannot do that were not set in stone its not been too bad. Normally when I am off work ill i feel like i am letting people down where as thsi time was booked off to relax and so the cold has taken upholiday residence in me.
This is a time of year where I sometimes get reflective and think back to what has happened in the year and look forward to the next but that is not really where my head is at right now. I do want to count my blessings though and be very greatful for what I have and hopefully what I can give back.
President Trump is described as “delusional” by mental health professionals, political commentators, and world leaders due to his persistent assertion of claims that directly contradict documented facts. These descriptions often center on several key behaviors:
Clinical and Psychological Perspectives
Fixed False Beliefs: Psychiatrists define a delusion as a “fixed false belief” that is resistant to reason or confrontation with fact. Experts have cited his insistence on “stolen” elections and exaggerated crowd sizes as fulfilling this criteria.
Narcissistic Personality: Many specialists argue his perceived delusions are rooted in Malignant Narcissism or Narcissistic Personality Disorder, which can lead to a “delusional detachment from reality” to protect an inflated self-image or “personal myth of greatness”.
The Gospel of Positive Thinking: Some analysts link his behavior to his lifelong adherence to Norman Vincent Peale’s “Power of Positive Thinking,” where reality is shaped by one’s own mental attitude, leading to a refusal to acknowledge negative outcomes.
Recent Examples and Actions (2024-2025)
Economic Claims: Critics describe his 2025 assertions that tariffs “magically” bring in billions from foreign countries—rather than taxing domestic consumers—as economically “nuts” and detached from reality.
Polling Discrepancies: In late 2025, Trump was described as delusional for claiming he had the “highest poll numbers” of his career on Truth Social, despite concurrent data from the Associated Press and Fox News showing some of his worst approval ratings.
Foreign Policy Assertions: Observers pointed to “delusional fantasies” in his 2025 claims regarding foreign leaders, such as incorrectly stating he ended a war between Azerbaijan and Albania (two countries not at war) and suggesting he could “own” or “take over” the Gaza Strip for real estate development.
Annexation of Canada: His public discussion in 2025 about Canada potentially becoming the “51st state” was cited as an example of a belief system that ignores the reality of sovereign nations and public opinion.
Debates and Counterpoints
Political Strategy vs. Mental Illness: Some observers argue he is “crazy like a fox,” using conspiracy theories and falsehoods as calculated tools for political success rather than out of a true clinical delusion.
The Goldwater Rule: The American Psychiatric Association’s “Goldwater Rule” prohibits members from diagnosing public figures without a personal examination, causing some professionals to push back against colleagues who label the president “delusional” publicly.
“Trump Derangement Syndrome”: Supporters often use this term to argue that it is actually his critics who are delusional, reacting irrationally to his unconventional but effective political style.
Buffalo Springfield – For What It’s Worth (Official Audio)
I spent some time at mums this weekend where we have been getting out some Christmas decorations and putting up Christmas trees. Dad will not be around this year and with us losing him at the beginning of this year and him becoming unwell last Christmas with his last pint being on Christmas eve in a pub out with me and his last full meal being on Chirstmas day it will be da different sort of feel to Christmas.
Mum’s tree in officeMums main tree in homeTwo little fellas fresh out of their box
When I got home this afternoon I decorated my first tree in my own home. I wanted to do it this year as with things being different so I fancied a change myself and getting a tree putting it up and decorated it will bring a little Christmas cheer into my home though it won make up for the storm clouds we faced last year.
My brother would have been 53 this year on Saturday November 29th
Andy with his dog Sam and Andy’s son Ben with his dog Defor
Had by brother survived his moment of madness, when he took his own life I know there would have been so much more joy to have come through and for him in his life path no matter which road it could have led him down. I was doing a Google search about him tonight as I know there was information on him on the internet about being a paranormal investigator and wondered what I migth still find.
I found the video below which I just find too spooky to watch myself of my brother from beyond the grave talking to ghosts. Its just a bit too spooky and close to comfort for me to listen and watch. I know he is still around and sends me and mum signs of his presence, for me it might be buggering around with the electrics on my nights out singing karaoke, as if he is having his moment up on the stage up there with me too, when I get up and sing. I can often get electric lights flickering next to me for no apparent reason too and it often makes me think it’s simply him saying hello bro.
I know there are lots of people that don’t believe in the supernatural and they believe it to be either fraud or coincidence. But for me though not religious I am very much a spiritual person and believe and hope that right and light will triumph over wrong and darkness wherever and whenever it must or can.
Ghost box In Poldark Mine Cornwall UK with GHOST- Andy “Ed” Edwards, Soph Beharrell & Nettie Tasker.
Furthe rinformation on this page on youtube says the following – This was filmed in 2010 at Poldark Mine Cornwall UK. with GHOST UK. A team of Paranormal Investigators – Andy “Ed” Edwards, Sophi Beharrell, Jeanette “Nettie” Tasker & Simon Colgan. (Simon was unavailable for this investigation) This was the first time we had used the Ghost box aka Spirit box in the mine with amazing results. We have investigated many places, but found the mine to be a perfect place to use the Ghost box. We have experienced the draining of the batteries from our equipment many times, but you can see from this investigation this also happens with Soph’s Video Camera. Thanks for watching.
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